Frank's blog about Integrity

This is sooo true, and Yes, I want to be in it, by God's grace. Change me, Lord...

This was what Frank wrote:

"Integrity, honesty, responsibility. I begin to put a post-it note on my steering wheels with those words written on there. I am the first one to confess I have the flaky, full of excuses tendancy in me, but now I am going to put a stop to it.
Let’s learn to say no, when we can’t commit to something, instead of “maybe” “i’ll let yo know.” Let’s learn to be commited to the things we have promised, even if it means dragging your lazy ass out of bed and put on a smile for your friend.
I have the confidence that as I change my lifestyle, not only will my social life improve, but also in my career.
Just watch, those who live a lifestyle with Integrity, honesty, responsibility, will outshine those who don’t. Are you in with me?"

Yes, Lord... Burn them away...

Daily Office, Week 2 Day 4 - Midday / Evening Prayer

Yes, Lord... Burn them away... The selfishness, self-centeredness, jealousy, fakeness, pretense, impatience, and all the "other motives" behind why I do things I do.
Save me from the poison that flows in my veins, from that which keeps me from your Light.
Fill me with You like a sponge is filled with water, and may I continue soak myself in You.
Transform me... make me over into my true self, the way You originally intended me to be.
I want to be my true self, God... But I don't know how... I need You!

Not liked....

Terribly feeling not being liked right now... especially by my housemates...

I'm sorry, God... I'm such a failure...

I don't know... but their little 'fakeness' just make me can't help but to see that they don't like me. Or am I being suspicious? But I guess my emotional unhealthiness could've been 1 of the reason I've failed to shine...

God... helppp....

BBTC Breakthrough Weekend

Back from BBW!

Really thank God for meeting me and revealing things and Himself to me in such a way.. personal, direct, piercing, but yet sooo gentle, tender and loving. It's comforted me so much that He affirmed me that He loves and still loves no matter how I had become. Even when I thought I'd never deserve to encounter Him in such a tangible way, He gave that to me. And it just awed and humbled me to be loved by a God so high. Such a person like me, He cares and wants to meet me such personally.. ohh.. who am I to deserve all these?

So, now I know:

My God is sooo real not only to others but also to me

I am loved by a God so high

HE IS ALLKNOWING! I am naked!

When God wants to work and deals with me, avoid also no use :)

His agenda is better than any agenda I could think of. Because He knows what I need better than myself does.

I felt like a stranger once I came home... I don't know what's that, but it's weird. But when I told Jac bout this, she said she felt the same also. So, I'm normal, haha...

And, dunno why... Tho I feel new, but I'm feeling a bit burdened or troubled. I really dunno what's wrong and what is this all about, but I've learned to trust God. Trust Him for what He wants to reveal to me and not what I want Him to reveal to me... Trust Him to deal with me in His way and not in the way I want and wish Him to use. So, God... I'll trust You to reveal to me what this 'troubled' is all about, and help me to surrender and be open to any thing you're going to work in this stubborn clay.

I'm quite nervous and start feeling the toughness the journey ahead will be. God... don't let me fail, don't let me hold back, don't let me give up, don't let me let myself block the breaktrough.

In Jesus Name, who has overcome ALL when He said "It is done!"

Amen

This broken wings had been healed, and now it's time to re-learn to fly...

Tho this way is still not clear and certain, but I know that He is leading in a clear and certain way.. and He'll also do that in my way

This "One Life" is not going to be wasted anymore...

Julia is feeling unfit

Julia is really in an unfit condition to be an encouragement for others, for her A&C partners :(((
(Well.. just because I don't want to post it in my FB, so I post it here...)

Dunno how to describe it.. but... I myself is so 'not well'.. how to be an encouragement for others? I'm strengthless... suddenly I want to become nobody... I want to hide...

You lai le...

This feeling's overwhelming me again: "What actually am I doing???"
I think I really have a big problem with my life destination. It has been yearsss!!! And now, I really can't find any significant value in the life I'm living now. It's just like earning for living and watching my days pass one day after another... wasted days...

God... I really need to get out of this loop... I don't think this is how my life's supposed to be rite?

I want...