BBTC Breakthrough Weekend

Back from BBW!

Really thank God for meeting me and revealing things and Himself to me in such a way.. personal, direct, piercing, but yet sooo gentle, tender and loving. It's comforted me so much that He affirmed me that He loves and still loves no matter how I had become. Even when I thought I'd never deserve to encounter Him in such a tangible way, He gave that to me. And it just awed and humbled me to be loved by a God so high. Such a person like me, He cares and wants to meet me such personally.. ohh.. who am I to deserve all these?

So, now I know:

My God is sooo real not only to others but also to me

I am loved by a God so high

HE IS ALLKNOWING! I am naked!

When God wants to work and deals with me, avoid also no use :)

His agenda is better than any agenda I could think of. Because He knows what I need better than myself does.

I felt like a stranger once I came home... I don't know what's that, but it's weird. But when I told Jac bout this, she said she felt the same also. So, I'm normal, haha...

And, dunno why... Tho I feel new, but I'm feeling a bit burdened or troubled. I really dunno what's wrong and what is this all about, but I've learned to trust God. Trust Him for what He wants to reveal to me and not what I want Him to reveal to me... Trust Him to deal with me in His way and not in the way I want and wish Him to use. So, God... I'll trust You to reveal to me what this 'troubled' is all about, and help me to surrender and be open to any thing you're going to work in this stubborn clay.

I'm quite nervous and start feeling the toughness the journey ahead will be. God... don't let me fail, don't let me hold back, don't let me give up, don't let me let myself block the breaktrough.

In Jesus Name, who has overcome ALL when He said "It is done!"

Amen

This broken wings had been healed, and now it's time to re-learn to fly...

Tho this way is still not clear and certain, but I know that He is leading in a clear and certain way.. and He'll also do that in my way

This "One Life" is not going to be wasted anymore...