Again... this' supposed to be posted yesterday, but no internet line. So this' actually what I wrote in my diary yesterday.
Happy Valentine, Jia Yun (and everyone who read this, my Sai Mui, of course). I love you.. God loves you even more, far far beyond what you could think of. He loves you, cares for you, 'n understands you more than anyone in life. ~> and I love You so, my God...
Watched "Smile Pasta" 'til 2am again. Argghh... Jia Yun.. is this your life?? What kinda life is this? Anyway, really impressed by Xiao Shi's "Wu Gui Jing Shen" (Spirit of Tortoise). I am the winner as long I reach the finish. "Dan Chuen".. yep, that's what I wanna be. A woman of Integrity.
All these while I have been "bao bei" for many; special friends, people in GSRI, the youths, mom's gank, friends in Kch, tree cell 3, and especially... Mum&Dad. Who on earth who doesn't know that I am a "bao bei" and most beloved of Papa? But... seems that I am really disappointing. Now I'm really unworthy to carry that "bao bei" title on me. I'm sorry Dad.. Mum..
I really want and wish I could visit many people who's meant so much in my life, but I really have no "face" to face them. I'm not ready at all to respond to their "hello, how r u?", "what r u doing now?", "where do you work?", bla3 questions. Name them Ms. Chung (my EIP lecturer 'sister', tree cell, mum's family, ex-lecturers and staffs, ex-classmates...
God.. please strengthen me. Uphold me, my heart, my thoughts, and my feeling in Your embrace. I can't walk alone, I can't go through all these by myself. I know Your way is the best, and it's not by telling me where I'll end up in. But You want to lead me 'step-by-step', that along the journey, I can learn and grow. I know, God... Just... give me that faith.. and TRUST.
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