Lesson learned for a "delayer"

Pa got to know that Chiung Lin suk was badly ill (cancer) and kind of isolated himself and his wife here in Singapore. Nobody was allowed to meet him or know where he is, not even his relatives.
Somehow pa got his phone number from his uncle. I tried to call once, his wife answered very reluctantly n said Chiung Lin suk didn't want to be disturbed.
Pa tried to call to, and same result.

Pa really wanted to visit him, knowing that he must be very lonely. Thus, asked me to try to find out the address from the phone number.

Well, I did try to find in library, and ask a few ppl if they have residents yellow pages and to no result.
However, I must admit, I hadn't put enough effort, didn't really realize the urgency, until... last nite, pa told me that Chiung Lin suk had just passed away.
I could just pause with a heavy heart.. sad.. regret.. for both Chiung Lin suk and Pa. "I should have acted faster and more seriusly", that's the first thing came to my mind. It really saddened me :(( and I felt very very bad... Said sorry to Pa, but I really wish that I had found out the address sooner.

I have realized many times that I am such a "delayer", in many things... Those usually are things that tho delayed, but still can be done. This time, it really tells me that there are a lot of things that once it's gone, IT IS GONE! no more chance to do... (same applies to that relationship issue I had)

So... I must really really not delay things that I have to do anymore, especially if it's the prompt from Holy Spirit... Oh God... help me.. I don't want to become a "delayer" anymore...

"A lot of 'yi han' (regret) that we could have chosen not to have..."
--> this is the status in my Facebook today.

Good Bye, Chiung Lin Suk... I've seen your many good works when you're living in this world (those that I saw during my childhood, which pretty much affected my passion towards mission). And I believe, you're now enjoying the crown n privileges with our Father in Heaven. See you... I really wish that Pa and I had visited you before you left...

Breakthrough!

And... uhm.. breakthrough! Yes, Lord, I need breakthrough...

Breakthrough in lifestyle
Breakthrough in mind and thoughts
Breakthrough in time management
Breakthrough in dreams and desires
Breakthrough in priority
Breakthrough in love to You and desire for the Words

Nuovo Cinema Paradiso

I watched this in Gracy's blog n like it very much.

Knowing God...

I think, this is the season of "Knowing God" in my spiritual life.
Yeah.. I've been knowing God... well, here and there a bit, tasting every now and then. But... I want to know Him MORE! and PERSONALLY! Genuinely!
So, God... in Your grace...

2 Peter 1
1Simon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours:
2Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Making One's Calling and Election Sure 3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.

Here about it:

How to love n intimate with Him if don't know Him?

How to be amazed and in awe of His greatness if don't know those attributes of Him?

How to "don't care about what others say about me, but care only what God says", if don't know what He thinks about me, what is the things that He says?

Serenity to Accept (a conversation on one Friday)

So, I told him bout the situation I'm in now, the struggle of finding where I'm supposed to be, what I'm supposed to do, n the really calling of my life which is from God.

He just answered, "I think it's because you are having and given a lot of expectations, from outside n inside". And, it just can't be any truer. Exactly, that's the main cause, I think. And I thank God, that He used BBTC to deal with this issue of expectation, condemnation, grace in my life. I am now really much better in term of this. However, this is the consequence, cause I have chosen that 'long-cut', the 'round and round' path.. Well, it's ok.. there are still lot of things in front that I can do to glorify God in my life, I believe, as God's transforming more and more into His image n plan.

He also said, "who say that all the past decisions you made were wrong?", and I must admit, it pretty much comforted (an wei) me :)

And I thank God, for letting him remind me of this,

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference" (He said it in simplified Indonesian)

I have seen this phrase many times in different bookmarks, but this time when he told me that, it's just so applicable to my life in this point of time. And yeah... I really need to do that... Only then, I'll be able to live my life from now on, in a way that I'm not wasting every single breathe of mine, but to really make the whole of me (body, mind and soul) be a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, glorifying God, this is my spiritual act of worship. God... need your grace and help and wisdom. And... I guess, that's the conclusion of conversation.

Thank you, fren.. So glad that you still understand me so well and are willing to share and encourage..
(Friday, 10 July 09 03.20pm)

Pilpres 2009

I'd just voted,here in kbri in singapore