Mentor?

This was what I wrote on Sun, 21 Feb 10 nite, when I was lying on my bed, about to sleep but had a terrible sleeplessness.

I think I need a mentor. Because it's really not healthy of me to keeping everything by myself. And I'm not a type who can easily and comfortably telling things to anyone.This keeping things by myself all these while has really shown its symptoms. Sometimes out of sudden I could just feel sooo heavy burdened (like now) that I could hardly breathe and heart beat increases. It's like too many things inside me and it's going to explode.
And I think this need become more necessary as I'm starting a role as a leader. Even now I've started seeing how not easy being a a leader is. When Sue told me how angry n upset she is over her family situation, it really ached my heart badly too, and also brought back all those similar experience that I had before.

I dunno whether this' just a thought or something that I really have to work on, as in, I dunno how ready I am to be mentored and to have a mentor. But yes, I guess I'm gonna put down myself, seek help and be helped, and learn to share out the real me, to a mentor? or may be just to someone whom God sends to me. So, I shared this with the prayer group last nite (my first time joining them - HC, Joy, Jac, Nic, Sue). As I was sharing, I came to realize too that my unstability and uncertainties til now are partly because of that too, because I have no one to talk too, to advise me, to help me see from another angle.