Another 'confusion'

Many things happened in these 2 days. While I've been struggling with my confusion of whether to wait for the job in dcOptima or just go to Sing, suddenly on Tuesday, something happened to Ce and her husband, which really sadden me as well. Something that relate to my family. Right away, it became another 'factor' that came into the list of 'to be considered' (in my job-seeking case). On that very day also, I 'almost' made up my mind to go to Sing. But still, there are fear for that decision. The fear that I'll spend another period of time being jobless in Sing (which of course means spending more). But, seems that it's the only solution.
Before, 'money' is not really a matter for me in looking for job. But now, it's been quite an 'up' one in the list of considerations.
Then, while I was 'almost' ended up in that 'decision', a call from dcOptima came telling me that I am to attend the meeting with the client-side team in Bintaro. Oh God.... I'm so confuse. I'm really afraid that I'll end up in a wrong decision of mine. In one side, I wondered, if God let this problem happen to ensure me to make up my mind to leave for SIng. But in another hand, it seems that when I almost 'reach' that decision, something came to 'block' that decision to be made. Till now, I haven't known yet how I should go to that place (Bintaro) tomorrow. I have no way... I can just surrender, God... totally... No way seems to be right and possible for me to take. Not dcOptime, nor Singapore.
Then last nite, got a call, Dad's sick and is in Hospital. Up to here, I can't even think anymore. My brain really needs to stop. Don't know which one I should think of first. God... now I'm really relying on You alone. Coz You know, God... Even myself, I can trust her anymore... What Sand said is true, sometimes God does create such a situation to make us realize that it's the time when "we can't rely to anyone, anything else anymore. Lian zi ji dou bu neng kao le..."
Now I'm so 'blank'. Don't know what to think, what to decide, even how to think, I don't know.... What I can say now is just... God... please help me....