I'm feeling so down... so discouraged... so betrayed... so unappreciated... so failed... so disregarded... But I can't blame them, I'm the one who's at fault.
I really want to love, to bless... I indeed felt that my calling here in Singapore is to bless and embrace my friens who'd also come to this country. Those who have not had Christ, I'll bring them to Christ. Those who'd gone apart from God, I'll bring them back. And I really want to do it. But recently, discouragement by discouragement seems to taking in. It's indeed hard to fight my selfishness, my self...
Such a moody, selfish, self-centered, ... me... how can others see/feel the love, care and blessing from me?
At the end... I become totally alone... God... transform me... transform me... I cry... And purify my heart...
Apart from God, I can really do NOTHING...
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