Be serious!

I really think that I need to be more serious in being a Christian; a disciple, a follower and a servant of Christ.
Last nite while taking shower, I suddenly felt that I've been too "cin cai" in being one, that I've been too easy to myself, letting my emotion and will swing my spiritual life up and down. Up when it's up itself and letting it be down when it's down.

No! The grace that I've received is not a cheap grace that can be taken for granted! Now I think, "cincai-ism" is absolutely unacceptable in being a 'real Christian' (which is = Christ's follower, disciple and servant).

"Oh God, forgive me for having been so 'cincai' in living for You". Yes, by the grace of God, I really gotta be more seriously and wholeheartedly:

- seeking Him (and to know Him) and His will in my life,
- living in righteousness and holiness,
- devoting myself unto Him,
- equipping myself to effectively minister to others (evangelism or building up),
- praying my prayer items,
- seeking Him for my life direction and calling in this 'desert' season,
- treating and always being well-prepared in all ministry He's trusted me with (including singing in choir).

I should not waste anymore of my days by letting them pass without being a 'Christian' on that day.

Yes, God is merciful, but I wanna choose not to 'cincai-ly' and 'suibian-ly' live this life for Him, simply because this grace and mercy do not deserve any other thing than a total and full affection, devotion and submission of its recipient.

God, you are my Master, my Lord, the Centre of my life. May this be a kick-off of my 'serious' journey in You. Walk with me, 'coz I need You...

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