Breakthrough!

And... uhm.. breakthrough! Yes, Lord, I need breakthrough...

Breakthrough in lifestyle
Breakthrough in mind and thoughts
Breakthrough in time management
Breakthrough in dreams and desires
Breakthrough in priority
Breakthrough in love to You and desire for the Words

Nuovo Cinema Paradiso

I watched this in Gracy's blog n like it very much.

Knowing God...

I think, this is the season of "Knowing God" in my spiritual life.
Yeah.. I've been knowing God... well, here and there a bit, tasting every now and then. But... I want to know Him MORE! and PERSONALLY! Genuinely!
So, God... in Your grace...

2 Peter 1
1Simon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours:
2Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Making One's Calling and Election Sure 3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.

Here about it:

How to love n intimate with Him if don't know Him?

How to be amazed and in awe of His greatness if don't know those attributes of Him?

How to "don't care about what others say about me, but care only what God says", if don't know what He thinks about me, what is the things that He says?

Serenity to Accept (a conversation on one Friday)

So, I told him bout the situation I'm in now, the struggle of finding where I'm supposed to be, what I'm supposed to do, n the really calling of my life which is from God.

He just answered, "I think it's because you are having and given a lot of expectations, from outside n inside". And, it just can't be any truer. Exactly, that's the main cause, I think. And I thank God, that He used BBTC to deal with this issue of expectation, condemnation, grace in my life. I am now really much better in term of this. However, this is the consequence, cause I have chosen that 'long-cut', the 'round and round' path.. Well, it's ok.. there are still lot of things in front that I can do to glorify God in my life, I believe, as God's transforming more and more into His image n plan.

He also said, "who say that all the past decisions you made were wrong?", and I must admit, it pretty much comforted (an wei) me :)

And I thank God, for letting him remind me of this,

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference" (He said it in simplified Indonesian)

I have seen this phrase many times in different bookmarks, but this time when he told me that, it's just so applicable to my life in this point of time. And yeah... I really need to do that... Only then, I'll be able to live my life from now on, in a way that I'm not wasting every single breathe of mine, but to really make the whole of me (body, mind and soul) be a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, glorifying God, this is my spiritual act of worship. God... need your grace and help and wisdom. And... I guess, that's the conclusion of conversation.

Thank you, fren.. So glad that you still understand me so well and are willing to share and encourage..
(Friday, 10 July 09 03.20pm)

Pilpres 2009

I'd just voted,here in kbri in singapore

Michael Jackson left

Btw, Michael Jackson died today (last night, I think) of cardiac arrest (heart attack). Well.. I'm not a big fan of him.. but it's indeed a big shock for the world.
Good bye, MJ! (1958 - 2009)

My current heart condition...

I'm trying very hard to find a word to describe my condition n feeling right now, my frustration... But... Just dunno what the word is..
Wu liao? no.. helpless? no.. clueless? not really.. wu... (dunno what).

It's a situation where I know and realize clearly that where I am at now is not where I'm supposed to be; what I'm doing now is not what I'm supposed to do.. I Know it's all wrong, but yet I dunno where else I can be, what else I can do.. which is really where and what I'm supposed to...

(Know it's not right, but yet dunno what's the right one.. Yeah!!! That is it! But what's the one word???)

It's a very mao dun and uneasy feel... My heart is hao lei hao lei... God, help...