I am so sad

I wrote this on 5th Jan, and til now.

I am so sad... because:
1. I am stuck spritually! I am so disappointed with myself in term of my spiritual life.
2. I am lost! Dunno what's next. Really lost my direction.
3. I wanna live and be with Pa and Mi, but I dunno how.
4. Lid have unhappinesses towards me. I've become her stumbling block.
5. Some one I'm closest to in this house, my roommate and my good friend, the only person I can tell some of my 'xin shi' to (if not all) is leaving. Now I'm even more alone...
6. Need to find a good roommate.
And lastly, Mi's chasing me about 'that'. Wo hao fan ah... frustrated...