Showing posts with label Thanks Giving. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thanks Giving. Show all posts

Sunday, May 30, 2010

BBTC Breakthrough Weekend

Back from BBW!

Really thank God for meeting me and revealing things and Himself to me in such a way.. personal, direct, piercing, but yet sooo gentle, tender and loving. It's comforted me so much that He affirmed me that He loves and still loves no matter how I had become. Even when I thought I'd never deserve to encounter Him in such a tangible way, He gave that to me. And it just awed and humbled me to be loved by a God so high. Such a person like me, He cares and wants to meet me such personally.. ohh.. who am I to deserve all these?

So, now I know:

My God is sooo real not only to others but also to me

I am loved by a God so high

HE IS ALLKNOWING! I am naked!

When God wants to work and deals with me, avoid also no use :)

His agenda is better than any agenda I could think of. Because He knows what I need better than myself does.

I felt like a stranger once I came home... I don't know what's that, but it's weird. But when I told Jac bout this, she said she felt the same also. So, I'm normal, haha...

And, dunno why... Tho I feel new, but I'm feeling a bit burdened or troubled. I really dunno what's wrong and what is this all about, but I've learned to trust God. Trust Him for what He wants to reveal to me and not what I want Him to reveal to me... Trust Him to deal with me in His way and not in the way I want and wish Him to use. So, God... I'll trust You to reveal to me what this 'troubled' is all about, and help me to surrender and be open to any thing you're going to work in this stubborn clay.

I'm quite nervous and start feeling the toughness the journey ahead will be. God... don't let me fail, don't let me hold back, don't let me give up, don't let me let myself block the breaktrough.

In Jesus Name, who has overcome ALL when He said "It is done!"
Amen
This broken wings had been healed, and now it's time to re-learn to fly...
Tho this way is still not clear and certain, but I know that He is leading in a clear and certain way.. and He'll also do that in my way
This "One Life" is not going to be wasted anymore...

Monday, May 3, 2010

Apple... I got it!

So, after getting my Macbook Pro which arrived early April (actually cleared the cash somewhere in Nov 2010), last nite I went to re-contract my starhub line n decided to get the 16GB iPhone 3GS paying SGD538 - 100 (voucher from Starhub) = SGD438 :)

Took the cheapest data plan which originally priced at SGD38/mth, but got 30% off every month. Well, another story in getting this 30% off, haha..

So Starhub is having this Multi-Mobile Saver promotion which allows you to enjoy 30% off subscription fee if 3 of you sign up together (maximum 1 re-contract), so basically I need 2 more people who were signing up new lines together with me. The process of finding took a while including asking friends and colleagues around. Then Silvy suggested me to find from forums, which I tried. So, I posted up this info in some forum like hardware zone and another one (can't remember the name). After a few days, someone who saw my post sms-ed me telling me he and his cousin were signing up. But I couldn't go on the day they intended to go because I haven't got my voucher, so they went ahead without me. I was still trusting God to provide, and few days after that someone contacted me telling that he wanted to sign up. So I asked Kotin whether she has decided (she was still doing research previously) and she said yes, she was ready to sign up. There it goes... that was Wednesday nite. I had to attend Financial Freedom Seminar on Thursday nite, CG on Friday nite, Faith's hen's nite on Saturday nite, Choir on Sunday and Iris' birthday after the 2nd service, so we made appointment to meet at Tampines Mall Starhub at 5.30pm. He's James, quite a nice guy :) So, I got the iPhone ^^
Btw, on Friday, the newspapers were telling news about the new generation of iphone, iphone 4GS (HD) going to be released soon, somewhere in June/July.. wakkss.. got confuse for a while whether or not to still take the iphone 3GS now. Asked around (including Tony, Barry, Bren), and actually still haven't decided when approaching Starhub, but since that guy has been waiting for me to sign up, didn't feel good to cancel lah... So, thinking that later when the new iphone first released, it will surely be more expensive whcih I may not be able to afford, and usually new release is cmmonly not so stabil, huh??! well, at least for electronics :)

Pheww... and I was telling myself this morning: No more big expense or shopping plss.. at least in this month, except the following:
1. Dress for Faith's wedding
2. Watches for Pa & Mi
3. Flight to Skw.

I must make sure also that during BBW in Malaysia, I don't shop :)

In the bus I was praying, and I thanked God for His grace that I can afford buying macbook n iphone. But I was asking God to help me that I will guard the resources that He's given to me well and wisely that I will only spend as necessary and don't become a spendthrift person :)

I think, there should be no more purchase of gadget (tertiary need) this year.

Monday, April 12, 2010

www.biblestudytools.com

We discussed about 1 John 5:6 about Jesus who came not only by water but by water and blood yesterday in cellgroup. So I was trying to search for some commentaries and found this powerful website: www.biblestudytools.com which also then led me to www.crosswalkradio.com

Wonderful... :)

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Jesus, I will not quit!

I just wanna thaaank God for feeding me with so much grace, creating (or rather reviving) the confidence in me, not of myself, but of Him, of His love again this beginning of year. I believe that this is gonna mark my year-start and by God's grace continue running this year better than last year. Thaaank You, God...

I just realized that I've been so hopeless, shameful, discouraged, disappointed with myself, especially in my spiritual life, and of course that 'lost-ness' in life. I felt everything's just gone. Even the talents that I used to think as God-given to me were also gone as I disobeyed Him and His will again and again. I literally lost everything... lost confidence, lost direction, lost passion, almost loosing hope, then...

1. Ps Benny Ho's sermon on Sunday, 17 Jan 2010 (Hope for the Hopeless)

My hope is in the God of hope! Not in myself, not in my strength to please Him (that fails again and again), not even in my faith, but in Him! So, who am I to lose hope? Oh.. there's still hope for me.. to be spiritually revived again, to be used by Him again, to be drawn near to Him again. Yes, there's hope...

Romans 5:13
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow
with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

Note: was supposed to tell Joy a deadline for me to answer her regarding being A&C leader after the service. I was almost wanting to say "No" right away, seeing how I'm doing as a Christian, seeing how my relationship with God had become. But after the sermon, I was so excited to see what God's going to do in my life this year that I changed my answer to "let's see how I'm improving in 3 months. Reason being, I don't want to lead out of myown emptiness"

2. Asher Tribe Gathering today, 29 Jan 2010 Exhortation by Tuck Leh

Watching the video below, when Derek was struggling with the pain, I really saw myself in it: hopeless, sin, strengthless, disappointed with myself, lonely, pain, lost... all were there. People are passing by and I was struggling, alone... I really felt myself not worthy of anything anymore. And then, when Derek got up and started running again, I found myself saying, "Yes Lord... I will not quit!" I want to continue running, and finish the race. And I know that my Father is running with me, giving me support and strength.

Note: About the role of leadership, I'm still not confident to myself as in whether I'm able to lead, what I can give etc. But I know, God's the One who's providing me with all those, and I came to know 1 thing: I want to do it. So how? hmm..

Yes! I really love the way God uses BBTC to bless me, to shape me. God.. I am now excited again to experience all that You're gonna do in my life. Help me Lord that this won't be just an overnight fire, but may this be something that stays in me that sustain my desire and excitement to seek You and grow in deeper knowledge of You.

Monday, September 28, 2009

First Jog @ Bedok Reservoir Park - 26 Sept 09

Haha... So finally on Saturday I went for my 1st jog at Bedok Reservoir Park which is just across our block with Pho. What a blessing, more than we expected, we were blessed with such a nice colourful sky as the sun was setting down...
We didn't manage to finish one whole round, though, because it was getting dark. But it was really a good 'first time' and start that so far I'm so motivated to jog there regularly. Well, I'll only be able to do it on weekends because on weekdays by the time I reach home, it's dark already and not very safe to go there.
So, jia you bah...
Pssstt...: will my target of 46kg by the end of this year be achieved? without so much on food diet, of course.. haha..


Saturday, September 26, 2009

End of DTC class..

So we are required to do a 50-100 words write-up on what we've learned from the course. And this is what I wrote:

To summarize, it’s about knowing “who God is” and “what I am”, and thus what kind of Christian I want to be. I have been a Christian all my life. But it is in this class that I, from the Words, know why I do the things I do.

The class has come to an end, but it has brought a significant impact in my life as a follower of Christ. It has made me want to continuously know God more, know and understand His truth so that my heart may respond to it and my life be conformed to it, and to obey with love, joy and peace in heart.

It's 111 words, though.. hehe.. Btw, I had a good time flipping through the 3 DTC books and writing down those quotes that I wrote all over the book during classes in a notebook that I think I'll continue to write whatever quotes I get in future in it.

It's 4:13pm now, hope I'll have enough motivation later to go for my first jogging here in Bedok Reservoir Park :)

Thursday, September 24, 2009

A Blessing ^^

So I was photostating the Monthly Progress Report when my phone rang. A bit annoyed I went to my desk to answer the call. A lady gently greeted me, "Hello, I am Sharon (or Sally??) calling from DBS Bank. May I speak to Ms. Julia Tandy?". "Speaking", I answered politely. "Is that convenient for you to talk now?". "What is it regarding?", I said hesitantly (because in my mind I was thinking that it must be of those credit card or insurance marketing stuff). But, here's what she said, "You have won a prize of $250 by spending with NETS", and she told me that it's a promotion held by NETS, the website and other details on how to redeem this prize. So basically I'm to call this NETS hotline 62741212 within 3 days and tell them my serial number.

I went back to the photocopy machine, thinking that it sounds quite true which is unlikely to be any of those cheat scheme, I smiled and stunned in front of the photocopy machine for quite a while, haha... Now I feel I was very cute just now. I mean, well.. though it's not a thrilling amount, but I've never got such thing before! So, it was really a very exciting news for me, haha... And first thought come to my mind, "what a blessing from God to me", and I tried to recall which seed I sowed that caused this fruit, not sure (not much I have sowed, though)... but it's not so important. I just know that it's a blessing :) Thank You, God...

And now, I'm going to make a call to NETS :p

Monday, September 14, 2009

Moved to Bedok Reservoir ~ 12 Sep 2009

So, Friday 11 Sep after work went to the unit for inventory check, key collection and payed everything (advance rental + agent comission). After signing everything, I went off first to accompany Lydia to the "Fire Proof" movie by BBTC. After then, went to Joy's place waiting for Deni who's still in the cellgroup. (Enjoyed myself alone with Joy's guitar for a while...). Had supper with Yew Ling & Cynthia and had a good fellowship n chat :) Went home at 1am, haha..

Saturday, alarm clock was set to 10.30am, but 9 something couldn't sleep any longer and decided to wake up before 10. Major packing and cleaning til 3 something I guess, and took shower then went to Jurong Point with Den, had a meal at Oldtown Coffee.
6pm, started moving the things using Pho's company's pick-up, helped by Ah Kok and Joshua (thank u bunch...), guess what.. 2 trip was needed, haha.. And thank be to God, that evening, they didn't have urgent work and was not raining, so God's favour to give us smooth moving.
Continued with unpacking the stuff til about 11.30pm, exhaused, stopped though haven't finished unpacking. Shower and prepared for DTC class the next morning.
What a exhausting day... aching all over e body... even now still hurt, haha...
And the feeling.. hmm.. yeah.. quite a funny n weird feeling, a feeling of "perpisahan/farewell", haha.. a feeling which is like just about to leave 'home' (true home with family back in Skw). That feeling of sad, blue, and homesick, haha.. even during the 2-day stay, the feeling was like "just arrived" to a new place, a new country, haha.. but this is within Singapore.. I wonder will I feel that way again tonite, hehe..

Oh ya.. I couldn't sleep! First night really had bad sleeping time, back from church continue unpacking n tidying up things, was very tired n sleepy so tried to have nap around 6pm, but still COULD NOT!! haizzz... why am I so fussy in sleeping? But thank God last nite finally slept though a bit hard in the beginning :)
Suppose to wake up at 6am this morning, but 'lai chuang' til 6.18am, showered and got out of house at about 6.40 with pho. Thank God again, while we were walking to bus stop, bus 506 was coming, we saw it and ran after it, so phewww... got to get into the bus.
Guess what, I arrived at bus stop at around 7.35, plus 10 minutes walk, 7.45 reached office.. haha... broke my record.. I AM EARLY!! ^^

And what I love best about this moving? except the nice Bedok Reservoir Park view from bedroom n living room, I now can have myown desk, though not very comfortable.. but you know.. a "myown" place to put myown stuffs, books etc and to just do whatever I want to do :)

Thank You, my God... for everything... for being with us.. guiding us.. providing us with all we need... for being such a wonderful God...

Next, browse for new jobbb... yeah.. by God's grace...

Love You, Abba...

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Abiding in Christ

Today's sermon: Abiding Life of John 15:5-8 by Dr Freddy Boey

I just wanna say, "Thank You, Lord.. for comforting and assuring me that even now, in this season, the season when I'm feeling so lost, so useless, so lonely, so no direction, so no achievement, so... wrong.., I am still and also abiding in Christ".
Yes, I am, and I will, and I want... oh God...

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

A blessed 'Pastors' Kid'

Everytime after I talked to Mommy, I'll always feel and in awe listening how Dad n Mum are always in favour with God thru men. It really tells me again and again the perfect care n special favour of God toward His faithful servants. Not only that, it really teach me and make me witness with my own eyes n life the law of "sowing and reaping".

Just now I called them again just to check mum's condition and to chit chat. Mum told me that she's got almost a RM1000 discount from Dr. Goh Kian Hua who did her operation, this is also the Doctor who operated Pa 2 years ago for his cyst and gave discount from his Doctor fee also. And guess what Mum told me.. Mum did a cosmetic surgery in Alor Setar, and when she arrived Kch, not knowing who else to turn to ask for help to take out the thread, she went to look for Dr. Goh. Dr. Goh did it for her. I mean, man... he's a great surgeon! I told Mum, "wah.. nyi an thai liap uu.." haha... And also, for all of Pa n Mi's eyes medication n consultation, Dr. Teo was the one who always take care of that with super cheap price... God... it's just... ah... indescribable...

This is really what Mum reaps by the seed of love, sincerety, generousity in painstakingly and self-less-ly bringing people to Kuching for their medical needs that Mum's sowed.

Oh God... I am just soo touched and in awe of your marvelous and great work in Your servants' life. God... I want to be like them... Ooopss.. I know, this will mean, there'll be a lot of seeds that You'll require me to sow n some of them would be pretty unpleasant.. but... yeah... I want, God... ^^

Mum's op was done.

Dear God... Thank You sooo much... for seeing us through in everything. Each day, I really 'bei gan dong' by Your love, mercy, and grace more and more...
Mommy's operation was over, very well and fast. I called Pa and talked to Mommy. She was very happy and was saying it was very fast and not painful at all.
She wished me "Sheng ri kuai le, cim cim cim (which means kiss kiss kiss), haha...

And God, how 'gan dong' I am, that You actually provides more than what I could think of. Not only You made everything went perfectly, You also provides company for Pa and Mi. So, Li Moy Ku and her husband also met Mi there and they went for check-up also, apparently, her husband also need to undergo some laser thingy which causes him need to be hospitalized for 1 night also. So, Pa will have company with Li Moy Ku, haha... what a divine arrangement rite?? :)

Happy Birthday 2009 ^^

Happy Birthday, Jia Yun... :)
I love you, Jesus loves you soo much, and a lot of people around you love you soo much.

Thank You, Father... for this life that You've given, for age of 25, for all the passages that You've written... And once again I want to thank You to planned me to be born in this family, being a daughter of Pdt. Elyakim Tandy and a great mother, Ev. Law Pee Eng. What a blessing, God...

Thank You Jesus, Pa, Mi, Ko, Jie, and everybody around me who had molded and nurtured and filled my life till I become who I am today.

I want to continue to plunge myself in the surpassing greatness of Your knowledge.

Yes, thank You, JESUS!!!

Btw, this year wishes by:
1. My Dear Sis (while chatting in YM)
Then in Facebook, she wished again, "
2. Venny!!! (love u soo much...)
"Although I can't wish you a happy birthday in person, but I'll spend the whole day with happy thoughts of you. happy birthday in advance. hope your day to shine as everyday shud be"
3. Peng
4. Iswanto
"Hepi bedai 2 u.. Hepi bedai 2 u.. hepi bedai 2 julehaaaaaaa.. hepi bedai 2 u.."
(haha... ada ada jak.. very surprised..)
5. Amy HK
6. Barry
7. Joy
8. Ah Hu
"Happy Birthday. When I recover someday i'll pass u gift"
9. Maz, YP, Wati
(with bear2 n bracelet)
10. Muk
11. Brian
12. Jeevan
13. Siance
"Happy birthday! dah 25 tahun ya? wah, ga terasa dah 13 taon pertemanan kita. pasti semakin bijak, cinta Tuhan n memaknai hidup dengan kasih n Tuhan memberkatimu. btw hari ini rayain ama sapa? :) mat ultah ya, bln nov jd dtg?"
14. Rui Ping
"Happy birthday! thanks for being such a blessing to me. may e Lord bless you richly in every way n use you mightiliy for His glory.
15. Wulan
"Melalui pepohonan dan bunga di ladang, melalui ciptaan yang kecil & besar, kita melihat pemeliharaanNya yang penuh perhatian. Dia juga merancang n menciptakanmu n begitu mengasihimu. aku juga sangat mengasihimu.Zhu ni sheng ri kuai le, ing. Luph: wulan & cia2
New york skin slolution
16. Sheena
17. Pa & Mi
"Ing, selamat hari ulang tahun pa n mami sayang ing yang manis. Tuhan memberkati. GBU"
18. Janna
19. Yenny
20. Ci Henny
21. Kimmy
22. Mommy (again). (I called her after her operation ^^)
"Sheng ri kuai le.. cim cim (means kiss kiss, hehe..)"
23. Mat Ko
24. Bob
25. Cen
26. Evi
27. Tony Wong
28. Lidya Lee
29. Evian
30. Simon (Loop)
31. Wan Tien
32. Kimmy (again, this time she called me)
33. Koko
34. Ci Lia
35. Junia
36. Xiao Ming
37. Antonio
38. Winny Januarti
39. Paskalia
40. Sarwo
41. Antonius Lonyon
42. Chui Li
43. Miki
44. Cindy Poh
45. Faith Chen

And, these are some of the birthday-related moment:

16 Aug '09 - Celebrating with Agape, together with Barry (16), Yew Ling (19) and Sheena (22)

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

feeling better...

Thank You, God... I'm feeling better now... very OK, actually :)
Called Dad n Mum, chatted for a while. Can sense that Mum actually wished I could go also, but I'd let her know my wish that I could go if it's not because I don't have leave anymore. God, I hope I can go on Friday night with cheap ticket leh.. can? :)
I'm very proud of my self that I calmly ended the conversation by saying to mum, "Ok lah, I'll pray for you", haha...
Yeah, Jia Yun, must really learn not to so easily saddened or overwhelmed oo... so big girl already, hehe...

Thank You, my faithful God... I believe! I trust in You! You indeed have and will take perfect care of Your Servants. Thank You, dear Lord... I'm indeed so thankful that You are mindful n care for us. Help me to really grow up, in my emotion.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Journey to the East :D

I wonder how many people in Singapore would do this; staying in the west already, working in the west, and still working in the west, but purposely finding a place in the east to move.. haha.. Well, many people stay in the east and work in the west (like Bren and Chee Boon) and vice versa. But it's totally a different story. They are staying in their own house, so they can't just simply move house in order to be near to their workplace, which is always temporary. But we.. (err, I, if not all of us).. I/We purposely go and find places in the East (because Central is too expensive).
Last nite, on the way back from Bedok Reservoir, the more I thought of it, the more I felt very funny and unbelievable and... kinda shameful to tell my colleagues, frens, cousins, etc, if I'm really moving (though actually, we don't have to feel embarrased, it's our freedom! haha...). Well, you know, their reaction will be things like "Whatt?? R u kidding? R u crazy? Xiao ar you? Ciak pa bo se co... bla bla bla..." hahaha... So I was telling Den n pho that if we are really moving, I'll just keep quite until the time when they find out by themselves, haha...

Anyway, before I continue with my story of last night and tonight, actually my idea of moving to East is because of this:
1. First of all, we want to move. Else, we would be comfortable enough to stay on here. Why move? First, we are not very happy with the other two housemates (especially that one). Second, Pho's mum is here, and there's no enough space here, so it actually adds up the urgency of us finding a new place.
2. Since we want to move, and since our church (me and Den), cell group and community is there in the East, and since we already have intention to change job, why not move closer to church and community and hope to get a job somewhere in Central or East?
3. By moving to East, it's much more feasible for me to join more or be involved more in Church activities and ministries. I remember very well my hesitation to decide to join Church choir (because of where I stay), though after some struggle, I decided to join (by the strong calling to serve God through the gift/talent that He has given me, and by the faith that God will take care of the rest of my needs, be it time and place to stay).
4. When guests are staying at our place, by staying at Boon Lay, it really makes us only reach home very very late after the "jalan-jalan", because of the travel distance.
5. We have breathed enough of West air (quoting from Hock Chye ^^). East air is really undeniable fresherrrr..

So... Pho, Den, Silvy and I, plus Pho's mum...
We started with a unit in Kallang. Quite like it. Owner asked for 2.2K, we requested for 1.8K, but owner could only lower to 2K, and we couldn't take it. Out... (quite disappointed)
The next day, we went to view an executive maissenate flat at Bedok Reservoir which was fabulous... A very spacious windy 2-storey nice view flat with ask price of 2K negotiable. Can you imaginee??? We (Pho, Silvy and I) were sooo tempted by it and 'xin yang yang' for the whole night. But, it's quite far. 10 minutes bus-ride to Bedok Interchange. The agent also didn't put any hope on us, knowing that 3 of us work in the west. So we kinda didn't pursue it and slowly the 'xin yang yang' died off, haha... That was about 3 or 4 weeks ago.
After that I was busy with Amy, Evian and Cindy's visit, so no house viewing for 2 weeks.
Last Saturday, Pho and I started viewing again, 2 unit at Paya Lebar. Both are 2+1+1, with 2 bedrooms and 1 utility room. Not interested at all, very small unit, quite a distance for walking to MRT stn, and still priced at 1.8K.
I started feeling tired and sick of viewing house. It is really not fun at all, especially if you reach to those small and old unit. (except the Bedok Reservoir one lor, very different feeling, haha..)
Monday (replacement of National Day Public Holiday), Pho and I started circling on newspaper again. Tuesday Deni called those circled, and made 2 viewing appointments on that night after work. Both units are at Bedok, and this time we had perfect attendance (Pho, I, Silvy, Deni - without Pho's mum)
Before going, I was praying that if any of the units are the one from God, may God give all of us the uniformity of feeling towards the house, that we will all 'like' the house.
We reached the first unit, was ok, with new aircon, but quite an old house with old furniture, and just not bright n fresh. I was so so with it, but Silvy disliked it pretty much.
Proceed to second unit, block 90. Despite of the outside which I felt a bit 'terpencil', dark, with construction going on, the inside of the house was quite nicely redone, with kinda big bedrooms. But, agent sticked to 2K. Plus it's not that we like it very much, so we decided it's a NO.
However, before that, after viewing the two units, suddenly, Silvy mentioned bout the one in Bedok Reservoir (Blk 725). My first respond was, "aiyahh.. sure taken one lah... so nice house with so good price, who don't want??" Then, after nini nana here n there a bit, while having our bak chor mee at blk 85 market, we decided to give Francis (the agent) a call. So, I called. "Hi Francis, Julia here, we viewed the unit at Bedok Reservoir Rd, remember?", and surprisingly, he remembered us very well. I continued, "is it taken already?". Even more surprisingly, "No, it's not taken yet." My eyes were opened big to show my surprise to the 3 of them. "I understood you were saying 2K negotiatable, can pls ask owner if it can be 1.8K?". Francis agreed and asked this again, "Are you guys serious? Have you carefully thought of the distance?", haha...
And... more more surprisingly, owner OK with that price, plus our request for TV and additional beds and mattrass. We were shocked, didn't know how to respond. Really, because we were actually just try try only, thinking that it's very impossible that it'll still be available.
Before calling, we had concern that Deni hasn't seen the house. And guess what, Francis offered us to view once more.. hey.. it's him to offered, we didn't ask for it, okayyy...
So, we went.. at 10pm, haha.. crazy women...
(Nevertheless, from the moment we were thinking to call Francis, I had kept on been praying in my heart)
Francis said, should be ok, but will confirm again the next day (which is today), because the husband of the owner had slept.
But it's like kinda confirmed already. On that night, I was kinda sad.. haha... it's not that I don't want to move to there lor.. I want... but just very sad, thinking of how I have to wake up so early in the morning to start work at 8am in Bukit Batok. But also hesitant to say NO.
It's on the way back (in the cab), that I felt everything was very funny, and we're a bit crazy, haha...

Today, I was too occupied by work in the office and no space n time to feel anything or to think about this matter at all. In midst of it, Deni informed that Francis told us that owner is OK with price n requests, and asking us to send him our particulars so he can do the contract. AArrggghh... how r we supposed to reply??? So we kept quiet, haha...

And, you must hear this silly thing that Pho and I did. It's my idea, though, haha...
After work, we actually took the MRT to Bedok, then bus to Bedok Reservoir, in order to try to take the express bus 506 to Jurong East, haha...
This is what I get:
Office to Clementi (Bus): $0.91 (10 mins)
Clementi to Bedok (MRT): $1.07 (36 mins)
Bedok to 'Home' (Bus): $0.69 (10 mins)

And after that, guess what... Bus 506 from 'Home' to a bus stop just before the turning to Bukit Batok St 23 only takes about 40 mins. From that bus stop, I can take 189 (1 stop) to infront of office, or just walk 10-15 mins to office. Yes, it takes longer than now, but now is 10 mins walk to MRT stn, MRT to Jurong East, change train to Bt. Batok, walk to bus interchange, wait for bus, bus to office, cross the road to reach office. Pls compare it to: take bus from in front of house, sit in the bus for 40 mins, take another bus to infront of office or just walk to office.

So for me, the result of this trial is a Haleluya, hehe... Totally a different feeling with last night.
And because Pho and Deni were still considering, I asked Francis whether it's ok if we get back to him in details on Saturday. He just said OK and will draft to us the contract thingy for us to see first. Hey... I mean, where can u find such a flexible, nice to talk, cin cai, helpful agent??? Just totally different with the rest of the agents that we met.
The more I thought of it, the more I thought it's really a grace.

God, thank You for bringing and leading us through... all the way til this stage. We still want to surrender everything into Your mighty hands, trusting You only, and not at all on ourselves. Pls show us Your way, and Your will... And help us to understand and obey. In precious Christ Name, Amen!

Friday, August 7, 2009

What can I do for God?

So, this song had actually spoken to me once, when I was listening to it in office...
But after that I forgot.. Until... That day of SOP last event at BBTC.. I was so happy to be reminded of this thought / inspiration that God'd given me :)

My Christian life has always been the kind full of activities, ministries, etc.. So, now, when I'm in the stage of not having any 'ministry', I felt very ... (hmm.. may be not used to it? guilty? uneasy lah...). Have been feeling that eversince coming to Singapore.

But recently, I have this thought, what is that all for, if I have no love for God? if I don't know Him? and I really deeply understood that knowing Him, that's also what I can do for Him. And when I listened to this song, it was reassured to me again that yes, love Him more (personally), that's one of what I can do for Him.

So, conclusion, what can I do for God? Love Him! Know Him!
(And this is also so "in line / relevant" with my current stage of spiritual life: Knowing God!)

Thank You, Father... How precious to me are your thoughts, are the way you inspired me and gave me understanding and enlightenment.

Amy, Evian and Cindy visit

30 July - 03 Aug 2009

Just a little bit of background. Amy, Evian, Cindy and I, we actually knew each other through the long closed down SOP BBS forum. Since, we still kept in touch via email n messenger once in a while. Amy and Evian the Hongkies, Cindy the Malaysian, and I the Indonesian. Never expected that we would actually meet face to face :)
Last year, Cindy came to attend SOP event and stayed in my room. That's how we for the first time met face to face.

This year, Cindy and I cancelled our plan of going to HK for SOP Asia Tour this year. Instead, we asked Amy why not she come, and she really considered that. Not only that, when I asked her to ask Evian whether she wanted to join, Evian also considered.. what a 'wow'!
And... it really happened. They came!

And I didn't expect that I would enjoy and had as much fun as I did. It had really become a wonderful memory for me. Started with the preparation of their itenary, the excitements, etc... and all the fun n laughter that they brought in our midst. I really thank God for them and for that days. They really brightened up my days. And how God lead all our activities, gave us good weather, and especially this amazing n unique friendship, really made me 'gan dong' (terharu). Thank You, Father... for such a sweet n wonderful melody that You've added up into this song of my life...

And here's some of the moments:

(Photo session)

Friday, July 10, 2009

Serenity to Accept (a conversation on one Friday)

So, I told him bout the situation I'm in now, the struggle of finding where I'm supposed to be, what I'm supposed to do, n the really calling of my life which is from God.

He just answered, "I think it's because you are having and given a lot of expectations, from outside n inside". And, it just can't be any truer. Exactly, that's the main cause, I think. And I thank God, that He used BBTC to deal with this issue of expectation, condemnation, grace in my life. I am now really much better in term of this. However, this is the consequence, cause I have chosen that 'long-cut', the 'round and round' path.. Well, it's ok.. there are still lot of things in front that I can do to glorify God in my life, I believe, as God's transforming more and more into His image n plan.

He also said, "who say that all the past decisions you made were wrong?", and I must admit, it pretty much comforted (an wei) me :)

And I thank God, for letting him remind me of this,

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference" (He said it in simplified Indonesian)

I have seen this phrase many times in different bookmarks, but this time when he told me that, it's just so applicable to my life in this point of time. And yeah... I really need to do that... Only then, I'll be able to live my life from now on, in a way that I'm not wasting every single breathe of mine, but to really make the whole of me (body, mind and soul) be a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God, glorifying God, this is my spiritual act of worship. God... need your grace and help and wisdom. And... I guess, that's the conclusion of conversation.

Thank you, fren.. So glad that you still understand me so well and are willing to share and encourage..
(Friday, 10 July 09 03.20pm)

Thursday, June 25, 2009

An 'an wei' from God...

Supposed to meet Jacinta @ our regular meeting place, Food for Thought.

8pm arrived there, couldn't find Jacinta, so I walked out and trying to call. Then saw Jacinta approacing. And... of my surprise, there she brought a nice basket containing a pack of bread, jam, 2 bottles of orange juice and a pack of instant coffee coconut latte. "This is for you, as an encouragement, coz you are so stress lately". Awww... it's the sweetest gift I've ever had...

Not only this, but the whole meeting and conversation tonite had really blessed n encouraged me so much. Thank You, God.. for reminding me that I'm so blessed. I really feel that I'm such a blessed and xing fu person. Feel so encouraged and cheered up. What a blessing, encouraging and cheering up meeting, listening to all positive blessings stuff really make my day different and cast away all my tiredness.. I could really feel that it's a comfort / 'an wei' directly from God... Felt sooo touched and gan dong, but more to God. Thank You, my precious God... thank you, Jac...

Thursday, February 19, 2009

My God's sooo good ^^

God... Than You sooo much...I'm so happy, Jie sms-ed me telling me that Ko went to church. I know it has nothing to do with our effort or smses, etc... but mainly God who touches his heart to take a start to come back to the Lord.

Father, I really thank You for all You've done in our family, especially recently. I thank You for the ways that've been opened up one by one. I thank You for that day of revelation, when You totally led my heart to be how it's suppose to be when I pray for Ko; Thank You for all that burden that You put in me and my family members; Thank You for the love that You've put in us to love and embrace Ko; Thank You for all forgiveness that You've made us able to give; Thank You for the unity that You've made possible among us; Thank You for the good time of fellowship that we had during CNY; Thank You for everything that You've done that hadn't been realized by me; and most importantly, thank You for touching and changing Ko's heart. I know God, revival's going to take place in his life.

When I prayed for mum & dad's relationship to be on fire again, You answered my prayer (I knew it when Mum told me how dad treated with loeve, tho it's a bit funny). I prayed for Ko, and now, once again You answered my prayer. Oh ya, one more, I prayed for myself to be close to You and have desire to seek You through Your Word, and You answered me, in just these recent days. Oh God... I'm so touched that You care for me, that You care for my heart desire and longings, that You care to give me what I ask for, that You care of my prayers...

Thank you... Thank You... Thank You precious God...

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Year-end bonus

Today I received my payslip. While everybody was talking about bonus, I was not that excited to open my envelope. Besides I haven't worked here for 1 year, my status is 'contracted staff' which means it's not compulsory for the company to give me bonus. Especially during this recession time, when companies are not doing very well, if they were to omit year-end bonus, of course I would be the first one to be omitted. What a negative and pesimist thought, huh?

But... I got it... yeah.. I received year-end bonus from ATS Traffic Pte Ltd. I was so happy... thankful... I was so touched by God's goodness, by His sweet Christmas gift.. Thank You, Father... I'm really happy...

(Honestly, though this is my 3rd full time job, but this is my first time having year-end bonus)

By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me — a prayer to the God of my life.
(Psalm 42:8)