7.20pm, still in office. Not that late yet though, but very very tired. So, going home soon. But, that desire to write more stuff and more constantly in this blog ever since I decided to revive my blog was just getting stronger and stronger. So, here I am, despite of my exhaustness, writing here :) I hope I can write more meaningful stuff here. God, please give me inspirations... Btw, I'm so happy that I accidentally found one of my favorite person's blog today :)
Thank You, God, for this very day. For all your guidance, care, strength, and protection that You've provided. I want to be more and more obedient to You, intentionally. Love You, Father...
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
But...
But... still can't get 'him' out of my mind. Comparing others to him, it's really hard to accept someone else, other than him. God... help me! :((
Friday, October 31, 2008
meeting
wow... I didn't receive any message from him, but guess what!? I met him! Well, on that same day, afternoon while waiting for off time, I suddenly thought of signing in to YM through ebuddy. Expecting to get an offline message from Gabriel (but there was not), Julianto was the very first and fast one to call me. Thne had a short chat with Julianto. When I saw my contact list, ghosh... 'he' is online. Then we ended up meeting up each other after work. We had dinner and a good chat that night. Errr... nothing might gonna happen (and I don't expect for anything yet), but thank You sooo much, God, letting me meet such an old friend whom I thought I'd never meet again.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
him...?
(Intro: This morning, after reading Sydney's blog, somehow just thought that I should revive my blogging again. A constant one, i mean. And... in the afternoon itself, which is now, got something to write about. Here you go...)
What a weird feeling... "deg-deg-an". Suddenly thought of signing in to friendster, after having never signed in for about a month (more than that i guess). And, guess what...!? There was a message from him... He's come to Singapore... Hm... I then left my mobile number. Now, hoping to receive a sms from him. The problem is, he very seldom signs in to his friendster... So just wait and see bah... (not a big story, huh... but the feeling is just so weird...*sobs*)
What a weird feeling... "deg-deg-an". Suddenly thought of signing in to friendster, after having never signed in for about a month (more than that i guess). And, guess what...!? There was a message from him... He's come to Singapore... Hm... I then left my mobile number. Now, hoping to receive a sms from him. The problem is, he very seldom signs in to his friendster... So just wait and see bah... (not a big story, huh... but the feeling is just so weird...*sobs*)
Monday, May 21, 2007
How can I not to give thanks?
Penyertaan-Mu sempurna, rancangan-Mu b'ri damai
Aman dan sejahtera, walau di tengah badai
Ingin 'ku s'lalu bersama rasakan keindahan
Arti kehadiran-Mu Tuhan...
2 days ago (19/05) was exactly 2 months since I started working in Value Plus - a very unexpected happening, but I truly know that it was not by coincidence at all, but was arranged in such a way by my Creator, my Planner - ending all those ~desperation, exhausting, never-ending unclaritiness, frustration, and so on...~ moments. Well... still desiring to go somewhere else, though (such a 'never-satisfied' me, huh? Hehe...). Don't know why I always wish I could go overseas(well.. though now I'm oversea,haha... I mean.. to western country - USA... my dream!!! haha...); but in time being, I know, God has His very purpose on putting me here NOW. So, what I know is just: I am here NOW, by God's grace, may I fulfill the purpose He assigns me to be here now. In future, where am I gonna be, what am I gonna do, I know it's all already in Your 'organizer', Lord, but... may I...?? ;p
Upon arrival, grace upon grace have I received, that really make me say: "How can I not give thanks?" After having opportunity to serve Papa during his sickness (I really cherish this "opportunity" - I call it), and spending sometimes (though just 1 week) at home, then on 17/03 (Saturday), I left Singkawang to Kuching. I can call it a miracle that after having travel-sickness, I didn't get bad my "pasca-mabok" as I usually had. God knows that I need health :) Arriving at Pleasant Court, Ming Ngi and Suh Chee picked me up to their house, as Su Fen was not in Kuching at that time. I had a good rest there (well... with quite a bad homesick) and stayed overnite there. The next day, they even sent me for shopping and paid for my daily needs. Oh God... what a precious gift from You they are. Until now, they are one of those angels around me, providing me with care, laughter, encouragement, and accompaniment.
After that, moved to Pleasant Court, staying with Su Fen, a good sister of mine, don't know how to describe, but all this while, she and Julian have been so helpful in almost every area of my needs, especially in the beginning of my days in Value Plus. Had great time while staying there for 1 month, that when I moved out, missed her badly (in fact, we still meet each other everyday in office, haha...). Well... may be because of her care which is more of a sister' care rather than a friend-care, the chit-chat we had all the time (sorry for causing your late sleep, sis...), the heart-stories, family stories, miss you, jie jie... (hahaha... that's how I call her lately)
Just on that very nite, the nite before I was suppose to start my first day in Value Plus, had a very stressing time as well, knowing that the contract would be 2 years. Well... write about this later, another story :)
Andy, Silvy, Su Fen of course, and other colleaques who are really more than friendly, helpful, and nice, were one of the mean that God used to convince me to stay, I think. Even until now, I really give thanks for them.
Even then, Thai ce (Yennie) invited me to stay in her house. Well, I do pay (though she at first resisted it), but it's still far far cheaper than if I am to rent a place. Besides, I can go to work with them.
Oh God, what can these all be, if it's not Your grace, and blessings, and arrangement?
My thousand tongues won't be enough to thank You, my precious Father....
Aman dan sejahtera, walau di tengah badai
Ingin 'ku s'lalu bersama rasakan keindahan
Arti kehadiran-Mu Tuhan...
2 days ago (19/05) was exactly 2 months since I started working in Value Plus - a very unexpected happening, but I truly know that it was not by coincidence at all, but was arranged in such a way by my Creator, my Planner - ending all those ~desperation, exhausting, never-ending unclaritiness, frustration, and so on...~ moments. Well... still desiring to go somewhere else, though (such a 'never-satisfied' me, huh? Hehe...). Don't know why I always wish I could go overseas(well.. though now I'm oversea,haha... I mean.. to western country - USA... my dream!!! haha...); but in time being, I know, God has His very purpose on putting me here NOW. So, what I know is just: I am here NOW, by God's grace, may I fulfill the purpose He assigns me to be here now. In future, where am I gonna be, what am I gonna do, I know it's all already in Your 'organizer', Lord, but... may I...?? ;p
Upon arrival, grace upon grace have I received, that really make me say: "How can I not give thanks?" After having opportunity to serve Papa during his sickness (I really cherish this "opportunity" - I call it), and spending sometimes (though just 1 week) at home, then on 17/03 (Saturday), I left Singkawang to Kuching. I can call it a miracle that after having travel-sickness, I didn't get bad my "pasca-mabok" as I usually had. God knows that I need health :) Arriving at Pleasant Court, Ming Ngi and Suh Chee picked me up to their house, as Su Fen was not in Kuching at that time. I had a good rest there (well... with quite a bad homesick) and stayed overnite there. The next day, they even sent me for shopping and paid for my daily needs. Oh God... what a precious gift from You they are. Until now, they are one of those angels around me, providing me with care, laughter, encouragement, and accompaniment.
After that, moved to Pleasant Court, staying with Su Fen, a good sister of mine, don't know how to describe, but all this while, she and Julian have been so helpful in almost every area of my needs, especially in the beginning of my days in Value Plus. Had great time while staying there for 1 month, that when I moved out, missed her badly (in fact, we still meet each other everyday in office, haha...). Well... may be because of her care which is more of a sister' care rather than a friend-care, the chit-chat we had all the time (sorry for causing your late sleep, sis...), the heart-stories, family stories, miss you, jie jie... (hahaha... that's how I call her lately)
Just on that very nite, the nite before I was suppose to start my first day in Value Plus, had a very stressing time as well, knowing that the contract would be 2 years. Well... write about this later, another story :)
Andy, Silvy, Su Fen of course, and other colleaques who are really more than friendly, helpful, and nice, were one of the mean that God used to convince me to stay, I think. Even until now, I really give thanks for them.
Even then, Thai ce (Yennie) invited me to stay in her house. Well, I do pay (though she at first resisted it), but it's still far far cheaper than if I am to rent a place. Besides, I can go to work with them.
Oh God, what can these all be, if it's not Your grace, and blessings, and arrangement?
My thousand tongues won't be enough to thank You, my precious Father....
Monday, May 14, 2007
Happy Mother's Day
Happy Mother's Day...
Hm... First time 'treat' mum a dinner for Mother's Day, felt so great... Thanks God for this opportunity. Mum was here since Friday for the ministry in Ling Liang though she was not the one who preach this morning, but her friend coming from Singapore (Ou Ling yi yi) was. Spent a great time with mum and the rest of them. Saturday, after office, went for lunch with them, then taught the children choir. They didn't do very well, i felt so sorry that i got angry with them. But after that apologized to God. Then went to see some resort in Santubong and Damai, and ended with a seafood dinner at Palm Garden. After that, went to Saberkas, had a car ride with Hok ko.. then teh tarik in Water Front.. Yummyyyy... :D
One more time, God reminded me.. "It's not by my might and ability" The children did quite badly the day before, but after the prayer, this morning they did very well in the choir. We had a little, but meaningful celebration of mother's day.
On Friday itself, was strengthen by mum's sharing in the prayer meeting. God... I really want to be like mum. For I know, that's how you want me to be. I'm still very far away from that stage, from that pure heart and integrity in serving you.But I know, it's all by Your Grace.
Mum... I know all your hardships, deeds, and perseverence. Thank You for never give up on me. Thank You God, for this parents of mine... It's really a great grace being their daughter.
Hm... First time 'treat' mum a dinner for Mother's Day, felt so great... Thanks God for this opportunity. Mum was here since Friday for the ministry in Ling Liang though she was not the one who preach this morning, but her friend coming from Singapore (Ou Ling yi yi) was. Spent a great time with mum and the rest of them. Saturday, after office, went for lunch with them, then taught the children choir. They didn't do very well, i felt so sorry that i got angry with them. But after that apologized to God. Then went to see some resort in Santubong and Damai, and ended with a seafood dinner at Palm Garden. After that, went to Saberkas, had a car ride with Hok ko.. then teh tarik in Water Front.. Yummyyyy... :D
One more time, God reminded me.. "It's not by my might and ability" The children did quite badly the day before, but after the prayer, this morning they did very well in the choir. We had a little, but meaningful celebration of mother's day.
On Friday itself, was strengthen by mum's sharing in the prayer meeting. God... I really want to be like mum. For I know, that's how you want me to be. I'm still very far away from that stage, from that pure heart and integrity in serving you.But I know, it's all by Your Grace.
Mum... I know all your hardships, deeds, and perseverence. Thank You for never give up on me. Thank You God, for this parents of mine... It's really a great grace being their daughter.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
After a Long Journey
Thank You, my dear Lord...
That's all I can say. Yeah... after long long journey, now i'm back to here. God's been guiding and arranging in such a way that this is where i'm suppose to be - at least for now-. Quite a long story also, why i eventually end up here. There'll be stories to come ^^ Since Dad was sick a month ago, haven't been bloging till now. But it was really a privilege and opportunity from God for me to serve Papa while he was sick, to let him know that i really love him.
Just complete 1 week being in Value Plus. Well, the nite before, and the first day working was really a hard time that again, made me think "am i making a rite decision?" But again, God guided in such a way that i know "Yes, it is.." I don't know what about days, months, years to come. But i just know, when i'm given today, then i'll just walk for today path. The rest, God's in control. Thank You Lord... What a special privilege being your child.\
Today, had quite a bad homesick. Now having headache as well, and felt like having influenza.
Mum came on Friday, taking people to see doctor and preach this morning. then left on 4pm in the afternoon. came home, alone, so lonely.. then with a bit headache and tired, went to sleep, but couldn't sleep well also... Missing u..dad and mum....
Tomorrow might be assigned with fault reports.. feel a bit nervous and scared, but Wo kao zhe na jia gei wo li liang de, fan shi dou neng zuo.... Yes... Zhu Ni gen wo zhou, wo hai pa shen me na??
That's all I can say. Yeah... after long long journey, now i'm back to here. God's been guiding and arranging in such a way that this is where i'm suppose to be - at least for now-. Quite a long story also, why i eventually end up here. There'll be stories to come ^^ Since Dad was sick a month ago, haven't been bloging till now. But it was really a privilege and opportunity from God for me to serve Papa while he was sick, to let him know that i really love him.
Just complete 1 week being in Value Plus. Well, the nite before, and the first day working was really a hard time that again, made me think "am i making a rite decision?" But again, God guided in such a way that i know "Yes, it is.." I don't know what about days, months, years to come. But i just know, when i'm given today, then i'll just walk for today path. The rest, God's in control. Thank You Lord... What a special privilege being your child.\
Today, had quite a bad homesick. Now having headache as well, and felt like having influenza.
Mum came on Friday, taking people to see doctor and preach this morning. then left on 4pm in the afternoon. came home, alone, so lonely.. then with a bit headache and tired, went to sleep, but couldn't sleep well also... Missing u..dad and mum....
Tomorrow might be assigned with fault reports.. feel a bit nervous and scared, but Wo kao zhe na jia gei wo li liang de, fan shi dou neng zuo.... Yes... Zhu Ni gen wo zhou, wo hai pa shen me na??
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