Lucky Draw ^^

Last nite we had a company casual Bowling, Karaoke & Dinner night, at SAFRA Mount Faber. Quite a nice place, more than I expected :) And guess what... I won the 13th lucky draw prize ($50),haha... If i'm not mistaken, that would be my 1st time winning a lucky draw prize, haha.. and oh ya.. it was my first time bowling too.

Bowling...

Here's my happy face...

Singing "Hero" ^^

My boss, Mr. Fong Ah Kiew & wife

My boss, Mr. Tony Foo & wife

Drawing of the Lucky Draw 1st prize by baby Irfan.. so sweet ^^
And here's the recipient, with her son
I'm so glad that Cheng Cheng got it. A tough single mother whom we all love. And, it was her son's (A Shan) birthday.

God... You love them, I know. I love them too..

Year-end bonus

Today I received my payslip. While everybody was talking about bonus, I was not that excited to open my envelope. Besides I haven't worked here for 1 year, my status is 'contracted staff' which means it's not compulsory for the company to give me bonus. Especially during this recession time, when companies are not doing very well, if they were to omit year-end bonus, of course I would be the first one to be omitted. What a negative and pesimist thought, huh?

But... I got it... yeah.. I received year-end bonus from ATS Traffic Pte Ltd. I was so happy... thankful... I was so touched by God's goodness, by His sweet Christmas gift.. Thank You, Father... I'm really happy...

(Honestly, though this is my 3rd full time job, but this is my first time having year-end bonus)

Raining day... home alone...

I like rain... :) And it has been raining for the whole day on Sunday, 14 December 2008, felt so good...

After being so busy with MHS preparation, especially the previous Friday and Saturday, on Sunday, after church service, we (Deni and I) went for a quick and simple lunch at Bedok Interchange, and went home straight. Had a very nice, sound, and lovely sleep, partly because of the weather too, I guess :)

Then woke up at about 7pm. Was home alone because Deni had gone off to work. It was still drizzling, and I had a 'very hard to put in word' feeling. Lonely, I guess, was hoping that I had someone to sweetly talk to in such a weather. But it was ok.. really.. I then had a very calm quiet time talking to God about my longing for ministry.

And here's 2 shots to mark the day... :)

Anyway.. I love that day ^^

Yi han..

25/11/08 10:11am

Listening to Betty's family recording for their mum during Mother's day. I feel like doing this for mum too,3 of us + the grandchildren. But just like many other times, whenever I thought of doing something for Dad & Mum, there'll always this "yi han" in my deepest heart: Koko! Everytime, I look at other's family who are so loving and close to each other, my heart would just be overwhelmed, weep. Yes, every single time, I'd just so admire them, and that to happen in my family. Actually it's not impossible for my family, only if Koko's changed.

Sometimes I really wonder what made him like that. I asked God many times, but no answer yet.

Does he hate Dad & Mum? If so, God, How's the reconciliation need to be? I believe! I believe there's nothing impossible for You. I know You are able to change him, in the way that we'd have never thought of. But one thing I ask... may that happen while Dad & Mum are still around, give Your faithful servants a chance to witness that miracle in our family, I believe it'll be the most wonderful and joyous moment for them, and for me. May this wonder works of Yours heal their hurts and give us chance to enjoy that wonderful moments together. God, I really ask this in Jesus Christ Name. Amen!

I'm so glad that I did the video for Pa's birthday. But, I could only do it on my own. I really wish to do it together with cece and koko.

I used to tell God that if Pa has to face this in his life, then may I be the one who comfort them, please them, being a good and adorable daughter to them. But now I know, I can please them, love them, but I'll never be able to replace ko. They being happy for having me is one thing, but being sad about koko is totally another thing; just like I'm being so thankful, glad, and proud for having these parents is really another thing with my sadness of having this koko. Whenever I see a family with a loving, protecting, adorable son, I always admire it, envy them.

And now, once again I whisper... God... I want it.. I want to see it... I want to see the miracle... And I believe You can.. only You can change him. Thank You, Father...

(Wrote this in my dcOptima notebook, and only today, 12/12/08 can finish typing it to blog ^^)

I was well... and going to be well too :)

Last nite went to meet B's parents and had dinner with them. We had a good and sweet fellowship, chat, sharing (watever you call it) together. So glad to hear that they are now passionately serving God in the church.
On the way there, kinda blue. But when I was with them, I was well... ya, so well... Praise the Lord. Even after that, though I still had some "only if" thoughts, but I was really well :)
Thank You, Jesus...

Took this photo once reached home :)

I believe...

I hate this feeling, don't know when can I get rid of it.
Whoo.. finally I told SC about this. Felt more released after telling, at least didn't feel that alone anymore. But this morning when I woke up, kinda regret telling her, because shame shame :)

Anyway, I believe God is going to heal me completely, restoring my heart wholly...
I believe... I believe...

End-Time Church

Sunday sermon was entitled "End-Time Church", by Rev. Dr. Tony Chi.
I wept as the preacher showed us the statistic of the world evangelization.
From 1.6 billion in 1900, the world population had grown up to 6.6 billion today (2008). Out of this huge number, 27% of them had never heard / known of the Gospel (i.e. unevangelized), and 87% of them live in Asia.

And watch this!
It's estimated that "15 people die in every 10 seconds. And 10 of them died without having heard of Gospel".Can you imagine, by the time we end our service, thousands of people have died without knowing God!
Looking at myself, inside my heart I cried, "God... I don't want to just wept... I want to act".

Oscar Schindler, he saved thousands of Jews from Nazis during World War II. But at the end of his works, he said, "I could have saved more". He cried for not saving enough.



What about me???